Do I HaVe To Be BlAmED

Y im the one to be blamed for all tis matter?
When i've try so hard in doin wat i can do for them?
No body can ever understand all that im goin through,
I feel so tired of carrying all those responsibilities wif me.
I give up,my love for them hv fade away.
I couldnt hold up strong like tis anymore.
I hv did wat i could but thgs jus dun turn out the way i wan it to be.
Dun ask me,not i wan but i'll jus have to give up.
Ther's so much thg tat u wil nvr know or who others wil know.

Frm all the conversation that would be heard or said,
Looks like im in the fault for all those tat hpned
Im not asking anyone to understan bcoz i know who did understan.
For all the thgs that i do i get scolded
For fetchin thm all the time im the one that get blame by my family
Ther's so much thg that i gotta go through by my own
Im jus hopin the little thgs that i can do could help them to be more closer to Father but who knows it cause thgs to hpn the other way round
My family is so different frm urs gabriel n u wil nvr feel wat im feeling all tis while to be the unloved one
If i was here to cause so much trouble to occur i wont keeping so much secret frm so many ppl inside..

Mayb it's really my fault
Tat's y when the time aunty pat ask me to take care of thm,
To brin thm to church in each meeting that we got,to carry sum oth responsibilities.
I try my very best to do wateva i can.
Think of it is jus like when u take care of sumbody since they were so young,
To teach n breath thm,to grow,and to learn...
U guide n take the best care n suddenly they wouldnt wan to follow God anymore...
They turn the other way n influenced by frens n worldly thgs n all u can do is jus too late for them...

My heart brokes...
I cant,i cant go on with the lifes im in now.
I dono n im not much longer to hold strong in all tis.
Im a human n i get so tired too
Not complaini but i'll jus hv to cry out all those hurt that's inside of me.
Y do we get blame or instead they ask themselves
Thats y i no longer wan to stay.
Problems that come no longer make me stay
That's wat i can say